Tbalma08′s Weblog

This day that the seniors had their picnic. And once again, I felt left out. All I did was sit there and get burned from sitting in the sun. But, it was kind of pretty fun though. I went out thinking that I wasn’t going to get wet and I ended up getting wet, lol. And all I did was sit there. But a guy come up to me and poured a whole bucket of water on me. It was pretty crazy though. But yeah, I was pretty burnt. You touch it and it would hurt like crazy. Oh, the food was good too. Mr. Bradford is not a bad cook afterall, he did Pretty well. And the plates were packed with food. There were beans, a hot dog, hamburger, fries, grilled chicken, and suasage. And there was chips, drinks, and cake that came a long with it. It was really, really good.

This day I was bowling with the rest of my graduating class. I really didn’t do anything really. I just kinda sat and talked to one of my friends. I didn’t do anything because I kind of felt out a little bit. It’s my senior year and I have not done one thing with my senior class. I’m wasn’t planning going to prom, or the senior trip, and couldn’t even go to the movies with the rest of them because I don’ t believe in going to the movies. But it’s kind of crazy though I guess. I wouldn’t really know. Really, I shouldn’t care about all that stuff anyways. In the end, it’s kind of not worth it because well, I know you’re entering a new stage in life and stuff but there are other ways to celebrate it than just doing things like that. That’s my opinion though.

This weekend was really good. I had so much fun. I didn’t go to prom, but I still had lots of fun. Instead of going to prom, my fiance took me out to eat to the Melting Pot! The food was awesome! He didn’t like it because he said he left hungry but I was completely full though. We got the four course deal. You get a salad of your choice. Then you get fondue of your choice. With the fondue, they give you chips and different vegetables to dip on the fondue. We ordered the fiesta fondue. It had beer in it, to give it flavor, it also had salsa and peppers to give it some spice. It was really, really good. For the entre, we had fillet mignon, shrimp, prok, raviolli, steak, and vanilla chicken. We had to cook it ourselves. We loved it. the next, it was the dessert. Talk about awesome. They had a menu just for the fondue chocolate. We ordered something with caramel in it. I don’t remember exactly what it was called. BUt we recieved strawberries, bananas, rice crispies, marshmallows, and angel cake. Right in the middle was a slice of cheesecake. It was so good. After we had left there, we wanted to walk around downtown but it was raining. We left, went to krogers, bought some movies and some popcorn and watched a movie until about midnight. We had so much fun. We didn’t want to leave each other. But we had to.

I am learning a really good lesson, and it has to deal with money. Yea, money, the little green stuff that people love to spend and never think about it. Yesterday, I was paid and today my fiance was paid, and we just sat down and talked on the phone during lunch and talked about our money. To be honest, I think we are doing pretty good. He makes like 3 times as much as I do, I mean afterall, I only work at Krogers and have been working 8 hours a week. But sometimes money get kinda hard to handle. He loves to spend it on electronics and games and I simply love to go shopping. We also love to go out to eat as well, which were all of our money is going. But we are working on this together and from now on we are going to start budgeting things out before we go somewhere and buy things. If I wanna go shopping for clothes or shoes, I am going to start asking myself, do I need this? What can I use it for? Everyonce and while, it’s ok to spend things on yourself, but still. Prices are going up everywhere so it’s crucial you save every penny you have.

Society today is so messed up. I was just walking through the hall ways today and a girl was upset because she had lost her best friend. I believe that she stated that the just turned 17 year old boy was trying to rob someone. He was instantly shot in the leg and immediately died on the spot. This incident shows just how society and the people that live in this world today.  It’s disturbing really. All the songs about f this, f that, we gonna shoot this, we gonna shoot that, it influences these teenagers lives.  Also, their lives are messed up because of home lives. How they get treated by their parents, or how they don’t get treated by their parents. It’s so funny though because you can be too strict and have the child become rebellious. Or you can just let them do whatever they want and they do things that get themselves in trouble anyways. Either way, something needs to happen in this society, it needs a change and no one is willing to do that. All the people that have tried, they have been assassinated. What do we do now?

Just a couple of more days to graduation then I’ll be on my own. Today, I told my family that I have finally set a date for mine and John’s marriage. I only had to people respond. ONe of my aunt’s, she’s not even considered blood; married through blood. My mom also resonded, which is ironic because she was never there for me and then she suddenly cares about me getting married and growing up. She doesn’t want me to grow up, get married, and have kids. Maybe it’s because she doesn’t want to feel old yet. I don’t know, but I know this, I am going to get married one way or another, not matter who tells me what right now. I may be young, but I know that I am making the right decision. Graduating, startung Vol State, and getting married all in one year. That’s a lot of stress, lol. In the end, I think it’ll be worth it.

Today has been kind of rough for me….. Thinking, thinking, thinking…. That’s all I have pretty much doing today. And of course, it sucks. Thinking about if I am gonna really turn in my two weeks or not for work. School, if I am really gonna pass Jolly’s class so I can get out of this sorry school. Home, if my grandfather is really gonna come home. Everytime they give him a date to come home, something happens where they have to keep him longer in hte hospital. Last SUnday, he wouldn’t wake up at all. Finally,  he woke up on his own and the doctors didn’t know what was wrong with him or why he had gone into a prolonged sleep. Also thinking about quitting my job so that I can help my grandparents out when my grandfather can finally come home. Because I will have to be cleaning the house full time while my granny watches my grandfather full time. She cannot even come to my graduation because she has to watch him and she’s the only one that can calm him down when he gets into one of his moods and starts talking to his dead daddy again. Not really much that I can do because soon I graduate and moving out, I hope so anyways. I am so stressed between school, work, work at home, planning a wedding, and church. Last night, I ran away to Dickson for a little while so that I can get some breathing room. It felt so good to be with my fiance and not even worry about anything and just being with him. On the way home, I fell asleep in his arms. I know it’s not the safest thing to do, but it comforted me a lot. And plus it was an hr long drive! Of course I was gonna fall asleep somehow.